Me as part of LGBTQ Community

Let me try writing again. I really don't know where should I focus myself or what things I should really do. Maybe I am still trying to find what fits me or where will I excel. So for now, I'll try writing once again while I'm still at it. The title of this article or whatever you will call it is "Me as part of LGBTQ Community". If you read my first blog or even some of my blogs, I already accepted myself as a bisexual.

According to Wikipedia once agian, Bisexuality is romantic attraction, sexual attraction, or sexual behavior toward both males and females, or to more than one sex or gender. It may also be defined as romantic or sexual attraction to people of any sex or gender identity, which is also known as pansexuality. So kung ano man pagkakaintindi niyo yun na yun.

I considered myself as a Bisexual, if you doubt that I am one Queer would do. Queer is an umbrella term for sexual and gender minorities who are not heterosexual or cisgender. I will tell you my story on how did I accept myself as a Bisexual.

When I was a kid, I really hate someone telling me that I am bakla (gay) or silahis (bisexual) because I know for a fact that I don't like boys that time and I do like girls. Tinatawag nila akong ganoon sapagkat kung kumilos ako ay malabot. Noon kasi or kahit hanggang ngayon kapag malambot ka kumilos bakla ka na agad. Until I get used to it, nasanay na akong tinatawag na bakla, bading o silahis. Pero syempre dahil ayokong mabago ang tingin nila I still deny it.

Dumating na ako sa point na narealize ko na I am falling for a guy. Doon ko na inaccept na bakla nga ako or what. I started exporing the so called bisexual world. My normal world is bigger that I thought for I was able to enter a more difficult world which is the Bisexual one. I joined clans where members were bisexual and all of them are discreet meaning still hiding at the closet. That was way back 2012 where bisexuals are not accepted by the human world (or so I thougt).

Lahat ng nakilala ko ay nagtatago at hindi pa alam ng kahit na sino kung ano sila. Kaya pati ako still denial that time. Everytime na may magtatanong if bakla ako, sisimangot nalang ako at sasabihing hindi. Sabi ko pa nga don't label me, basta ang alam ko lalaki ako.

Actually there were a lot of things happened since I enter the bisexual world. Maybe it is still  not the time to detail it but my journey was full of ups and down. Then sa di inaasahang pagkakataon, I just told my friends that I am bisexual. I even told them about simple things I've done as a bisexual even the man I fall in love with. I started coming out to my friends, then to my not so close friend and two years ago with my Family.

Before I graduated in College, my family was able to know my real identity. I really don't tell them directly but I was happy that they were able to have an idea. My father was unhappy and that cause quarrels and hatred. But who am I to hate him, even though he might not like what I've become, I am trying my best to achieve higher so that even I am a bisexual he, together with my family, can still be proud of me.

Yun ang hirap sa pagiging isang bakla o part ng LGBQ Community, kailangan mong may maachieve para hindi ka laitin , kutyain at tapak tapakan. Kailangan mong bumangon at patunayan na may silbi ka sa iyong lipunang ginagalawan.

I AM BRENT, I AM PART OF LGBTQ COMMUNITY <3

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